It's Time I Thought About What Am I Turning Into And Where Am I Going In Life?

back from Camp at pulau ubin. survival camp...really wonderful. but i just realise that this weekend i lost alot of stuff. my survival kit, my jack knife and someone rather special to me.

ROVER'S SURVIVAL CAMP
basically what it is is you're in pulau ubin and you are required to go through the whole camp while completing a series of activites and stuff like that. the activities are first aid, survival killing, evacuation skills, cycling practical, rescuing bags from drifting off to uncharted islands. we also ran alot. had to tolerate the pain from the abrasions that was painfully rubbing within my inner thighs and stuff like that. slept in hammocks (a proper one) and i was covered by a groundsheet so i was shielded from most mosquito bites. hm..but it didn't do much cause i still have freaking red spots on my arm...hm...and the red dots are the mosquitoes bites, not anything like aids or anything like that...just to let you know...hm, well, the whole camp was kinda great...finally we experience having our bags thrown into the water. it was great...i dunno why, but i was smiling to myself and i heard my mind go "yes" when my bag was the first to be thrown in the water...then when we had to get it, i saw my bag drifting away...and i was like...'erm, it's fine if you wanna drift but could you drift towards me?'...but anyway it was good fun actually holding our sea drenched bags our heads while getting our p***c regions drowned. that was basically the last part that we had to overcome. basically the whole camp was great. wasted it rained quite abit during the first day of the camp. if not we would have learnt more and have more fun. lost my survival kit as well. i had hooked it onto my shorts, and then i think it drifted off to some other pulau when we were in the water. damn, there goes 40 over bucks, including my modified lighter which could burn your nose off in a single flick...yeah baby...

Culda

Rovers Topography Camp - The Search For Spoons Begin

Topography Begins - Let The Arrow Guide You In All That You Do But Also Never Forget Your Confidence And Faith To Which Will Help You Before You Fall


relaxing in our circular dome of mundane entertainment


take the shoes off, take the socks off, and let the others be aware that odour not only resides in the armpits but also at the bottom of the soles of your aching feet.


my bag of mysteries - why mysteries, there's so many compartments that you will get tired of actually searching it through...and it looks nice also, doesn't it???

Culda (The Visionary Pleasing Department)

Chastine's Partial Freedom - Her 18th Birthday, Her Coming Of Age Only To Drink And To Club At Certain Places And Other Stuff Like That.

Welcome ladies and gentleman...


The beautiful chocolate cake from bakerzin which was torutered and gang-banged in a few moments time after that.


The Birthday Girl - stunned? shocked? oh no, she's making a wish...like karin would say 'i WONDER!!! what chastin wished for?'


the cake that got mercilessly massacred into bite-size portions for own eating and face painting purposes...


...and this was the weapon of choice.

Group Photo - Edwin (looks like he time traveled, cool effect), Weng loke (mr cool in white polo), Ke Jie (mr cool in blue polo), Me (behind, grabbing chastine's head and boxing her head), ansel (next to me, tip-toeing?? haha, bad place to stand i think), Wei Xiang (next to ansel, hm, he looks lost and scared), Chastine (being grabbed by her head and boxed by me), Hui Min(acting innocent), Ming Jun (behind, usual freaky smile), Melissa (no comments)...

awwwwww.....classic pose...(look at the thought bubbles...even more classic...amazing how their arm and hand postures tend to be similar?)


something is happening here...between the two girls...and the other seems happy about it...hmm, interesting


power ranger formation? or the new backstreet boys dance choreography?


actually, supposedly, the guys were supposed to be cool, but the shutter went off earler and the only person to be caught in the 'right' pose was ming jun...a**hole


BIRTHDAY BASH!!! THE EXTREME VERSION!!!

Culda (The Visionary Pleasing Department)

Patience Is Running Thin - I Have Always Dreaded This. Being Stuck At This Forked Road, And Wondering Where Do I Go? Left Or Right?

Rovers
alright, yesterday we started our topo camp and just ended it today. it was kinda fun, lasting for like more than a day basically what it is is to walk while looking at the map and the compass. now you must be thinking, why can't we just use GPS (global positioning service/system for you foos-heads out there who don't know)? well, there's a difference between having the important navigation skills and relying. when you rely on technology, and when technology fails, you're dead. and then you'll be lost. and you'll slowly find yourself surrounded by wild boars hunting your poor sad ass down.

we were doing 'rural' topography for this camp. 'urban' topo some other day, or so we were told. it was pretty fun, abit tiring after awhile. but fun no doubt. then we had night topography as well, which was held at a cemetary. interesting. it was pretty cool. having the night walk. overall a very good day.

then next morning pt. then march for like a few kilometers to the jelutong tower. i would have enjoyed the walk even more if it was done the scout way. observe the surrounding nature of how it is in the early morning. breathe in the fresh air. count the tortoises in the lake. taste the dew on the leaves. hear the birds chirping the freakishly small lungs away. stuff like that. after the march, had breakfast, then had a test. god damn, for one section of my test, i accidentely thought the bearing to be of 40 degrees less than the actual. there goes my marks. hm, then after test, our group had to head west all the way til we reached the first sign of civilisation. then again walked to king albert park and had debrief.

debrief was special. cause after that we celebrated the birthday of sharon. but before that, as i said about the debrief, we had a nice time replying with 'very good' for every question. but to my lost list of complains and to which i could not really come up with a constructive explanation, i was asked to feedback on wednesday. let's hope all is forgotten so that i can save the time. but i mean, it is still required to be said. it is needed to be voiced out, my thoughts. hm, sometimes it's hard to understand we are in a scout unit (rovers after all are still scouts - once a scout, always a scout) but we tend to have a different view of it at times. it's kinda confusing and all that. you get what i'm trying to say? it's not that anyone's wrong in their perception of scouting. it's just different. i guess we have to learn the adapt to it. well, all i can say is i'm wokring on it.

WORK
it's all going wrong. everything is not how it's supposed to be. i'm so pissed and sometimes i wonder who's to blame. and i sometimes wonder as well who should be the one who should be realy pissed. but i'm human. so give me the right to be pissed for now at least. i mean, jokes can't be accepted. and when i'm not joking, people will be asking me why the hell am i so emo? and when i reply them in a satirical way, i'm immediately said to be having the bad attitude. and if i have the bad attitude, it will rub off to other people. and other peole will treat me in a harsh manner as in to provoke me more, and that will cause dire conscequences on everyone, including the customers. see how it links? i'm not saying this as a threat. nor am i saying this because of anything personal. i'm saying this, because it is true. don't you see it. it's hard to live life in an enviroment where being told about something that's so different from what they tell you the next day.


i've had it. my anger is building up. i'm getting pissed. i'd better stop here. if not i'll be dragging on and on about something that will become a clusterfuck.

Culda

P.S. pictures to be updated very soon. my next post. i'm starting to take pics...cause i've got nothing better else to do.