I'm Supposed To Die Tonight

1. Put your iPod or i tunes library, or MP3 player etc... on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds. (The silliness is rather the point.)
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

Here it goes:-

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Simple Plan - Perfect [i'm so optimistic all of a sudden]

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Ludacris - Number One Spot [hell yeahh!!! baby!!! me numero uno. take that.]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Cradle Of Filth - I Am The Thorn [hm, no comments. but nice song though]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE
Boyz To Men - On Bended Knee [i'm gonna propose...over and over and over again. til i die, i'm gonna propose...]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Punjabi MC - Knight Rider [maybe night rider would be more nice. i love the night. i don't 'ride' knights...it's just wrong]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Pillar - Bring Me Down [hm, that's just sad...]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
James Morrison - Undiscovered [hm, i do think about...but not so much really]

WHAT IS 2+2?
N'Sync - Dirty Pop [interesting...thought provoking]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Fall Out Boy - I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You) [okay, this sounds really gay!!!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bullet For My Valentine - Say Goodnight [that's all i can think of seriously...itunes knows me too well.}

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Rihanna - Sell Me Candy [this just does not make sense]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Eric Clapton - Lady In Red [what the heck]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Dream Theater - Honor Thy Father [haha, in case you'll dunno this song is actually a hate song...so contradicting eh?]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Iron Maiden - Only The Good Die Young [what's that supposed to mean?]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
R Kelly Feat. Usher - Same Girl [i don't think i'll be dancing to this...maybe singing...but still kinda the wrong song]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Montana Tucker Feat. Sikora And Denial (From Step Up 2) - Ain't No Stressing [great, everyone will be dancing, popping and locking and break dancing at my funeral...just great)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Inner Circle - Bad Boys [sounds wrong...i don't do bad boys..am i bad boy...think i've changed]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Sean Paul - We Be Burning [hm, no sense i can make of this]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Switchfoot - Meant To Live [see, i'm humane...i know you guys deserve to live]

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Crazy Town - Butterfly (Come My Lady) [no link but hey on the bright side i didn't know i had this song]

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Basshunter - Now You're Gone [it says how i will die, not when i'm dead..sheesh, to think i could trust itunes]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
P.O.D. - Alive [i hate itunes!!!]

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Cradle Of Filth - The Foetus Of A New Day Kicking [interesting...i didn't know]

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Dream Theater - Solitary Shell [in other words, i'm emo when i alone...goddammit]

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Linkin Park - What I've Done [two words...'ha' and ha']

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Christina Aguilera - Super Bitch [hell yeah, scared for my own wallet and safety and all that]

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
BuckCherry - Sorry [...no one does...]

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Evanescence - Missing [i would rescue all the missing people...and i would win some kind of nobel prize as well for going into time and doing good stuff]

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Ne-Yo - Do You [hm, thinking about some parts of the lyrics, i really do hurt thinking...]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
50 Cent - I'm Supposed To Die Tonight [great...thanks alot itunes]

Who do i tag at this moment?

Culda

We Fall Into It, We Fall Out Of It, We Don't Understand It, We Can't Understand It, We Can't Help It, We Just Do It, Love Is Complicated.

staring at the sky in the middle of the night with only a few stars to guide the lost and lonely, sometimes on certain occasions, i can't help but picture someone's face in the black canvas above me. depressing sometimes it may appear to some, but to me and other people who share the same habit of looking to the skies for a clearer picture of life, it's just dealing with the insanity of daily life.

i know there have been times where i have played with emotions and feeling of others and now i have started to feel that i am to be subjected to the vicious cycle of being the one being stamped into the dust.

i have started to know the meaning of love. and to love is to start to have a passion for something. and beginning to have a passion for something means to foster a commitement. these are the values that have to be fostered and inculcated in everything that we do from now on.

i was watching this movie earlier on, it was a depressing movie. about this girl who gets married to a guy and then the guy dies. well, there's more to it. but the thing that i wanna focus on is how the girl couldn't get over her husband's death. leads me to think. will i ever love anyone or get loved by anyone to such an extent that even if the worst were to happen, would love for one die? the commitement dies, the passion dies...the love dies? i don't know about that. this are all just thoughts...for us to think of.

i remember i had such a nice time with someone...but too bad, the wrong things were done. thus it lead to disaster from there. i never meant for it to happen. but shit happens. but anyway, it was amazing. and now that i know what it takes, it's all cool.

but then again. we have to think about this. do we love someone because he/she is everything we like about and fancy? or do you love that someone just for the company? just for company?

i see that i become more curious. but more you know, the more you get scared. for example, the more you learn about what can set a girl/guy off on a anger rampage, the more you caution yourself.

knowledge is power. power corrupts. so thus, is knowledge the root of corruptibility?

Nav

I Am Navjoth (Nerve-Joe-T) Singh (Sing) also known as Nav (Naf).

finally. i have collected all my thoughts and organized myself to write about my dear miserable, enigmatic, unknown and misunderstood life. i look at myself in the mirror (to check myself out first) and i realise that i'm leading my life under a mask. sometimes i wonder whether the truth of my life will make me less approachable and more boring.

let me begin.

i was born into a family of 5. but there was always an age gap (7 between my bro, and 8/9 between my sis) which made me left out always. i never felt i could make a difference. always been known as the my brother's brother. always my brother's brother, or my sister's brother. my father always had supported everyone of us and he's probably the only reason why i'm still struggling through my life. everyone said, why not you just continue the course you are in now? my father always wanted us to learn the struggles of life. i started thinking. i needed to suceed. i learnt that i would start afresh. i have decided now. life is not all about studying. you've gotta get a life. but now it's different. singapore belives in meritocracy. so you've gotta get the best paper qualification. if not, you're just gonna get a 9-5 job with a pay enough only to pay for your eating bills for the entire month. after that, you're just left with money enough to go buy those nitty gritty shit.

but enough of that. i could continue on where i am now. but looking into the future, i feel that i would never be able to succed so well. so that's why i've decided to continue on my current decision. people say, isit all about money? well, for me, it is. my family went through some financial crisis and was never able to recover. however my father is working his hardest for us to make us never feel that impact. he's working so hard, that he suffers all alone in india. he spends about 3 months there. and when he's back in singapore, he's only there for like a week or two.

my mom is trying to not make us feel so sad. working as a housewife and trying to constantly trying to fix the problems in the family. but appareantly...the problems are still there. my bro always got all the attention. he made his mark as a successful person. so partly i don't blame him. but somehow i felt that my attention was compromised without my consent. even i was asked, i wouldn't have been given the choice to say no. anyway, i'm now struggling to make it work for my life.

i became a scout after joining ava. ava club sucks...seriously. i don't think i would have learned alot of stuff had i joined ava. i joined scouts like after half a year after. or was it less than that. i forgot. anyway, joining scouts was the best thing i ever did. joy was shared, tears were shed, and characther was forged. but then again i was just a scout. the moment i joined in and saw what a leader was, i told myself that i wanted to be a leader. but unfortunately, i never did seize the oppurtunity when i was given the chance. i regretted. but it's too late to regret. but it's never too late to learn from your regrets. yeah, i hope to make a difference now that i'm a venture. i try hard, but again sometimes insecurities reign when you start to think. i wouldn't say i'm a optimist nor am i a pessimist. but i would not deny to being more negative than being positive.

i've been to say things. sometimes the right things, but not the good things. sometimes at the socut unit i say stuff, that gets a little hurting. but the reason why i say that is that i slightly see the similarities between the unit men and my family. sometimes i can't help it. i dunno why. i've gotta stop. i need to stop.

...i cause hurt, but i hurt more...

it's hard for me to show people how i am. cause it's disturbing and depressing. i get so caught up in my thoughts some time, i sometimes get lost in reality. having close ties sometimes can lead to problems. it's hard when you've got close ties with someone and then you just slowly stop communicating and all. a scout makes friends, establishes and maintains harmonious relationships. sometimes i feel i'm dsigracing the scout law by doing what i do, but it's hard to continue when you know you've got your own reason which just kills you to do what you have to do. but i'm learning to change. i hope i do. i know i am. i'm begining to see it now.

...i confuse, i get confused...

it's hard to continue but we have to...i am on a new path. i am on the pathway to change. yes we can? yes i can. change i belive in. navjoth singh is new and improved. he's a new fuckin person...

Navjoth

P.S...haiyaz...who am i kidding...