Patience Is Running Thin - I Have Always Dreaded This. Being Stuck At This Forked Road, And Wondering Where Do I Go? Left Or Right?

Rovers
alright, yesterday we started our topo camp and just ended it today. it was kinda fun, lasting for like more than a day basically what it is is to walk while looking at the map and the compass. now you must be thinking, why can't we just use GPS (global positioning service/system for you foos-heads out there who don't know)? well, there's a difference between having the important navigation skills and relying. when you rely on technology, and when technology fails, you're dead. and then you'll be lost. and you'll slowly find yourself surrounded by wild boars hunting your poor sad ass down.

we were doing 'rural' topography for this camp. 'urban' topo some other day, or so we were told. it was pretty fun, abit tiring after awhile. but fun no doubt. then we had night topography as well, which was held at a cemetary. interesting. it was pretty cool. having the night walk. overall a very good day.

then next morning pt. then march for like a few kilometers to the jelutong tower. i would have enjoyed the walk even more if it was done the scout way. observe the surrounding nature of how it is in the early morning. breathe in the fresh air. count the tortoises in the lake. taste the dew on the leaves. hear the birds chirping the freakishly small lungs away. stuff like that. after the march, had breakfast, then had a test. god damn, for one section of my test, i accidentely thought the bearing to be of 40 degrees less than the actual. there goes my marks. hm, then after test, our group had to head west all the way til we reached the first sign of civilisation. then again walked to king albert park and had debrief.

debrief was special. cause after that we celebrated the birthday of sharon. but before that, as i said about the debrief, we had a nice time replying with 'very good' for every question. but to my lost list of complains and to which i could not really come up with a constructive explanation, i was asked to feedback on wednesday. let's hope all is forgotten so that i can save the time. but i mean, it is still required to be said. it is needed to be voiced out, my thoughts. hm, sometimes it's hard to understand we are in a scout unit (rovers after all are still scouts - once a scout, always a scout) but we tend to have a different view of it at times. it's kinda confusing and all that. you get what i'm trying to say? it's not that anyone's wrong in their perception of scouting. it's just different. i guess we have to learn the adapt to it. well, all i can say is i'm wokring on it.

WORK
it's all going wrong. everything is not how it's supposed to be. i'm so pissed and sometimes i wonder who's to blame. and i sometimes wonder as well who should be the one who should be realy pissed. but i'm human. so give me the right to be pissed for now at least. i mean, jokes can't be accepted. and when i'm not joking, people will be asking me why the hell am i so emo? and when i reply them in a satirical way, i'm immediately said to be having the bad attitude. and if i have the bad attitude, it will rub off to other people. and other peole will treat me in a harsh manner as in to provoke me more, and that will cause dire conscequences on everyone, including the customers. see how it links? i'm not saying this as a threat. nor am i saying this because of anything personal. i'm saying this, because it is true. don't you see it. it's hard to live life in an enviroment where being told about something that's so different from what they tell you the next day.


i've had it. my anger is building up. i'm getting pissed. i'd better stop here. if not i'll be dragging on and on about something that will become a clusterfuck.

Culda

P.S. pictures to be updated very soon. my next post. i'm starting to take pics...cause i've got nothing better else to do.