I See Them Chinese Folks Gathering Around Dressed In Red And Exhanging Oranges, Laughing And Conversing And I Think To Myself 'What A Wonderful World'

Xin Nian Kuai Le. Gong Xi Fa Cai. Fa Ya Fa Da Cai.

Remember, don't buy shoes and books and clocks, cut your hair, sweep the floor, scream vulgarities, and wear white and/or black.

Instead, get a whole load of sweets for a sweet year, make sure that your house is super clean (but abit too late for this advice), and have the lights on to scare away stuff (could get some lanterns to be save power), and if you like, bathe in some kinds of leaves to make yourself healthy for the whole year.

Once again, to you and your family, congratulations and be prosperous, healthy and lucky thorughout.

Culda

So Close Yet So Far.

Hm, as my titles grow shorter, so does my entires. but i dunno, maybe today might be long. who knows maybe i start to talk about something and i'm either too tired to rant or to tired to shorten it.

it's sad to say that i have actually decided to do what i did not hope i ever desired to do. it hurts to just leave at such a point but can it be helped. i know that being here would just create more problems. it's like being in a relationship. if you are with another person, and you'll just somehow keep having different view points and all that, why bother lying to yourself that it will all be worked out? why bother being in a relationship when you know that at the end of the day, you'll know that there are certain issues in your head you know will be hard to talk about as it will just bring unhappiness and disappointment.

maybe i'm asking too much as well when i say i want to see purposes. i dunno why but sometimes i just feel like i'm turning into a moron, asking about all there purposes. maybe it's the way that i'm brought up. hm, but don't you think that if we were to actually ask ourselves the purposes from each party involved, we would find some stuff unnessarily redundant. hm, we also have to see each other's enthusiasm. how moronic huh?

well, anyway, i've decided to leave. maybe i'll feel that i'm creating a new life for myself. maybe.

Red Fox Ventures
hm, ventures. my new committement. i somehow know feel more attached to my venture unit even though it hasn't even been a month compared to my other past years in the unit. sadly this year would be offical last year in it. sad to leave as part of the unit. hm anyway, i'm seeing that my this venture batch can lead us to new heights. i hope that i don't get disappointed. i know i will not be. hm, but sometimes i wonder whether i'm doing too much at one time. am i being selfish to just see the unit go up and tend to neglect the other side? i hope this doesn't happen.

hm, i'm hoping that we understand each other well. i am a figure head, most of the times during meetings, activities and certain times which requires someone to step up as the spokesman or representative. other than that, i'm just a venture. a friend. it will be cool if you actually would like me to be a chairman all the time but i can assure you it would not help in any thing. it will just create unhappy and demanding and stressful situations and will lead to a downfall in progress if it continues.

my progress with that girl is still nowhere. hm, after RIC.

ladies tell me why can't i be more like the other kind of men. when i do, they say all men are the same.

Culda

RED RED RED

hm, was doing a little reading online.

surprising how some 'ghost' stories happen to be of the same context. like i heard from ngee ann poly, where there is a red block, where someone committed suicide and the blood went all over the wall and railing. after painting it, it still had the red stains. so they decided to paint the whole thing red. then there's sing poly red bridge. someone committed suicide, the bridge began red, then everytime they paint, became red. so the paint it red. must be the same company, don't you think? since they so smart to come up with the same solution.

maybe it's the fascination to create stories. but i dunno. maybe it's true? who knows? hm, the other time i remember i was at the ngee ann poly, walking at the old engineering workshops. hm, even in the morning, it was creepy. and it was opposite the maju camp, of which there are some stories.

hm, buy listening to all this stories, i'm getting more fueled and eager to actually come up with a nightwalk, but i also dunno for who, when and all that. but i just wanna make it interesting and all that.

hm, also interested in stupid crappy games. like how we use to play during sec sch...fun like hell.

also just decided to do what i've been thinking about for a long time already. i know it's the right thing, but not a good thing.

Culda

Rough Seas Just Pose A Challenge To The Veteran Sea Captain, So He Just Adjusts His Cap And Whistles Softly While Calling His Men To Order.

the challenge has begun. the weight of all the responsibilities start to get heavier on my shoulders. where i am now is starting to show that this transitional year is starting to be more challenging as the days go by. i know that i took it up. but i'm not gonna be another shit-case like what i was last time during the campfire planning. i need to change. i need to change the current situation. i believe that together, the whole comittee can create the legacy that is so deserves.

as first i had the feeling that a wrong choice was made, but i'm just starting to see what you like. i just hope that what i'm thinking does not come true. i do not want it to come true. i hope everything works out. it's not a good year to give up. actually, it's never a good year to give up. three years is all we've got. i'm going bye bye as an offiicial. the future of me in red fox is still unclear. i hope i can be with the ventures forever because seriously, venturing is different. though the bonds in scouting is unique, i hope that i'll actually be able to forge the same kind of bonding through certain event/activities/whatever.

well, the rovers are also on my mind. always. cause i know my committement to it. rovers big foot, survive the adventure camp, and still got my stupid annual camp which is so desperately in need of a date in order for it to be off my shoulders. i've got something to say rovers...i dunno hw to say it...but i need to get it off my chest..but i'm still hesitating cause it will change stuff...change as in...hm...i won't know...

can't believe it, can't believe what my family is going through right now. why does it have to happen. it just broke me today. i can't help but actually be weak about this. what the hell. well, shit happens.

Culda