Monday, November 16, 2009

I Wanna Run With You Into The Sunset.

it's been what? a week? a week and a half since i've been talking to her? and you know, am i regretting talking to her, when i could maybe be doing other things? no i don't at all. why is it so? i always have been wanting to talk to her. and i really do like talking to her. i really do. but now maybe i'm starting to have my doubts whether i should have started talking to her.

was i wrong to do it? cause now i feel that i may screw it up. you know, why is it that it's this particular situation in which i don't wanna mess anything up. i never know when is the right time to talk to her. i dunno when is the right time. oh my god, the only girl who has seriously made me rethink my every movements.

okay, some of you may have read my previous posts about stuff of such relevance and might i just say i was writing it from a different persona most of the time, as seen from the writing and from the signing off. yeah. weird. i know. but whatcha gonna do about it.

anyway, i sometimes wish i could tell her. it was so easy to tell others i liked them. but it seems so hard. maybe i'll continue to talk to her. then maybe when i feel the time is right, which i dunno when, i'll tell her. of course, i have to see how she's reacting to me daily, or when we are talking. things like this are not supposed to happen. is it that i'm really...in...i can't say it. i don't even know.

but awwwww man, one year. i can't believe it. noone can belive it as well. for one year, and without even talking to her. even not knowing anything about her. am i just imagining it or is what that's has been happening to me happening to me once again? is that what my life is about? oh my god...i'm starting to feel it.

i dunno why, but when i see her, my heart just melts. my eyes start to tear. when i see her just there, i wanna go up to her. and tell her. that i've been wanting to talk to her for a year. but it sounds freaky. does it? doesn't it? i really like her. i really do. you know what. i've just gotta go for it. i'm never gonna know what's gonna happen unless i jsut seize the opportunity. seize the day. seize the moment. try to freeze it in gold and then embrace it. i know i've got it. but i dunno. the chances of her saying no is about 98%. just being realistic. just keeping it real. i can handle the truth. i can take it. it's only been a year.

i can stop my feelings can i? it jsut happens. i don't want them to happen. it jsut does. it's spontaneous. it's involuntary. if she's reading this, what might she think?

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