Rough Seas Just Pose A Challenge To The Veteran Sea Captain, So He Just Adjusts His Cap And Whistles Softly While Calling His Men To Order.

the challenge has begun. the weight of all the responsibilities start to get heavier on my shoulders. where i am now is starting to show that this transitional year is starting to be more challenging as the days go by. i know that i took it up. but i'm not gonna be another shit-case like what i was last time during the campfire planning. i need to change. i need to change the current situation. i believe that together, the whole comittee can create the legacy that is so deserves.

as first i had the feeling that a wrong choice was made, but i'm just starting to see what you like. i just hope that what i'm thinking does not come true. i do not want it to come true. i hope everything works out. it's not a good year to give up. actually, it's never a good year to give up. three years is all we've got. i'm going bye bye as an offiicial. the future of me in red fox is still unclear. i hope i can be with the ventures forever because seriously, venturing is different. though the bonds in scouting is unique, i hope that i'll actually be able to forge the same kind of bonding through certain event/activities/whatever.

well, the rovers are also on my mind. always. cause i know my committement to it. rovers big foot, survive the adventure camp, and still got my stupid annual camp which is so desperately in need of a date in order for it to be off my shoulders. i've got something to say rovers...i dunno hw to say it...but i need to get it off my chest..but i'm still hesitating cause it will change stuff...change as in...hm...i won't know...

can't believe it, can't believe what my family is going through right now. why does it have to happen. it just broke me today. i can't help but actually be weak about this. what the hell. well, shit happens.

Culda