So Close Yet So Far.

Hm, as my titles grow shorter, so does my entires. but i dunno, maybe today might be long. who knows maybe i start to talk about something and i'm either too tired to rant or to tired to shorten it.

it's sad to say that i have actually decided to do what i did not hope i ever desired to do. it hurts to just leave at such a point but can it be helped. i know that being here would just create more problems. it's like being in a relationship. if you are with another person, and you'll just somehow keep having different view points and all that, why bother lying to yourself that it will all be worked out? why bother being in a relationship when you know that at the end of the day, you'll know that there are certain issues in your head you know will be hard to talk about as it will just bring unhappiness and disappointment.

maybe i'm asking too much as well when i say i want to see purposes. i dunno why but sometimes i just feel like i'm turning into a moron, asking about all there purposes. maybe it's the way that i'm brought up. hm, but don't you think that if we were to actually ask ourselves the purposes from each party involved, we would find some stuff unnessarily redundant. hm, we also have to see each other's enthusiasm. how moronic huh?

well, anyway, i've decided to leave. maybe i'll feel that i'm creating a new life for myself. maybe.

Red Fox Ventures
hm, ventures. my new committement. i somehow know feel more attached to my venture unit even though it hasn't even been a month compared to my other past years in the unit. sadly this year would be offical last year in it. sad to leave as part of the unit. hm anyway, i'm seeing that my this venture batch can lead us to new heights. i hope that i don't get disappointed. i know i will not be. hm, but sometimes i wonder whether i'm doing too much at one time. am i being selfish to just see the unit go up and tend to neglect the other side? i hope this doesn't happen.

hm, i'm hoping that we understand each other well. i am a figure head, most of the times during meetings, activities and certain times which requires someone to step up as the spokesman or representative. other than that, i'm just a venture. a friend. it will be cool if you actually would like me to be a chairman all the time but i can assure you it would not help in any thing. it will just create unhappy and demanding and stressful situations and will lead to a downfall in progress if it continues.

my progress with that girl is still nowhere. hm, after RIC.

ladies tell me why can't i be more like the other kind of men. when i do, they say all men are the same.

Culda