Never Opened Myself This Way, Life Is Ours We Live It Our Way, All This Words I Don't Just Say...And Nothing Else Matters...

i know now that through a certain rant, people can assume the greatest by guessing what is happening instead of actually going down to the main source and trying to assess and understand the whole situation. well, that's people right? If we worked on the assumption that what is accepted as true really is true, then there would be little hope for advance. And assuming just goes to show you how lazy we are, knowing that we can do all in power to understand what is going on, but we fail due to fact that we can actually just sit down in one corner and just come to a conclusion without any proof.

it's easier to criticize than to help work on something.

anyway, i accepted the post, knowing in all fact that it was not gonna be a walk in the park. but that doesn't mean it's not always smooth sailing. maybe my constant rants about exaggerating my views and opinions have caused mental strain and hurt on some and that lead to that bunch with a constant itch to write something and thus doing so, i hope that they have kinda eased up alright. but maybe they were unknown that i was ready for them. anyway, i love being a venture chairman. cause why? roles and responsibilites...changes people. give those to a man and he will understand his responsibility and his duty to the unit or whatever. hm, but you are doubting me...never mind...read scouting for boys campfire yarn number 4, the patrol system paragraph 2.

hm, scouting was all about progression...personal progression. from a young boy to grand gentleman. from a tenderfoot to a old bird. it's all about growing. and i knew it from the start, or rather from the moment i read scouting for boys. of course i have read other materials like rovering to success and all. also read some guiding materials just for fun. hm, it's all knowledge. now that we've learnt how to live with the basic responsibilites when we were in a patrol and now that we've learnt how to take riegns of being a leader by guiding the young boys and thinking for the whole unit, we've to also learn how are such things benefitting us? isit benefitting us first of all? if it's not, might as well not do what you're do. everything is a learning experience. everyday is a learning experience. i've learnt that throughout. and therefore, i love leading my unit, my venture unit. cause i learn about myself and how to work with others. i learn about new stuff. i'm never unamazed.

Through failure we learn.

hm, yeah, there are problems but at the end of the day we learn to overcome it. it's never too late. it seriously is never too late. no matter what anyone tells you. the world is a big furniture store with unlimited numbers of open doors. see which one you can go through.

yeah, hm, i wanted to say some stuff, but i said it in a more better way. i decided that i was in no right to state the other side cause i'm just a nobody.

in other matters...i've just got one thing to say.

do i make people hate me? and don't think of the stupid 'just because you're my friend so i can crap about it' answer. really? haiz, i've not grown haven't i? should i give up?

i think the moment if we can communicate better and be happy with each others characther and all, then i would say that i have succeded.

Culda

Hey Honey, Sorry I Can't Spend Too Much Time With You As I'm On My Reign of Terror, Striking Fear Into All Those Who Pass By Me, Just For No Reason.

am i being to fierce? but i'm not the fierce one? am i? are people really afraid to come up to me? why oh why have i done this to myself? i didn't ask for this. i didn't ask to be hated? isit because of the fact that i have the habit of making people feel like idiots? isit because i tend to pick on the little things that do wrong? is it because i have the habit of shouting and screaming at them? isit because i tend to appear ready to pick on them? isit because of the fact i love to see them punished just because they are not up to certain standard? oh, it is? okay, then i don't mind being hated.

no but really...i mean, i'm trying to change. i don't punish them now. i talk to them nicely. i try to be more entertaining. in a way that they can slowly learn the ways of the venture. even if that sounds right. hm, anyway, trial and error. through failure we learn.

but!!! why do guides hate me??? oh no...when my ventures told me that, i was seriously heart-broken. oh...it's really like a shot to my heart. i'm not kidding. argh...it really hurts. why do they hate me? oh no...this can't be. what the hell...

anyway, in other news, i'm going to rovers this saturday. i want to show them that i really am caring for their unit. but i mean again. i hope they are not expecting me and the rest of the new rovers to teach them to teach us rovering. that's abit wrong. i mean...it doesn't sound right. but i'm taking footdrill. i was like so confident about it but then when i heard guides hate me...then i started to question my confidence. argh...why?

Culda