It Is Not The Fall That Kills You. It's The Sudden Stop At The End Which Brings You Down To Your Knees And Make You Cry For Mercy.

i have failed to understand why shit happens anymore. or rather, i kinda have given up. given up for now. it's tiring. i won't use my annual camp as an example. it's not fair. looking at it, i won't use anything as an example. it might be too direct. it might show the stupidity of some too easily and directly and may cause bitch-fits all over the island. and this may cause the entire world to shift due to an imbalance in the equilibrium of nature. sometimes it's hard to comprehend people's minds and their actions. you dunno what they wanna do. we are not mind readers. shouldn't we just say what we really feel about each other's actions and where they should improve on. we shouldn't really do it in a direct way that will affect the person in a way that the person receiving the comment will not know what to say or may make him reply offensively, sarcastically or just plain rudely. we are trying to make the person improve. we shouldn't just kill the person with blatant remarks. what do we get when we just tell a person that he sucks so much the floor is sparkling clean whereever he goes.

kinda makes you think as well. don't direct or straightforward people lead a boring and sad life. i could elaborate and go on...but will it make any difference. you're not out in the world to put smiles or joy in anybody's life. your purpose in life is to show and prove to other people in life what a freaking retard you are. woops? too...erm...straightforward?

hm, on other news. annual camp postponed. i'm kinda happy for a few reasons. well, can finally get a chalet. to some people, it's not that we chose to spend our nights in tents or whatever. we are kinda aiming for comfort for ourselves. it's kinda a pain in the ass, complaining about beds and shit. it is annoying after a while. freaking annoying. jokes be jokes...but...argh..that's how the way some people are. like i'm a guy who when he says stuff, he tries his very best not to shoot off his mouth. cause i know when i do, i have to try even harder to stop myself before hurting some people. but unlike some people, i don't like to tell them directly. being indirect is fun. cause you get to test your own creativity. and being indirect may also hit more than one person. anyway, back to annual camp, i hope that it doesn't go through any pitfall or trench again. i'm gonna just really race through everything and try to get everything done for this camp. so that it will put a smile on everybody's face when it's finally over. and even on the one i like.

we belive what we what we read sometimes. some people are too lazy sometimes or just over read some things. or they might just read it as it is. they don't bother to refer behind or refer forward into an article to see whether there is more to what has been said. though it may be easier said than done, what i write always tend to have some significance or continuation or link from a previous article or in a future article (but it only works if you remember what i said). hm. just something i thought i would just say.

well, my mind is in a bit of a fluster right now. i have the tendency to overthink and complicate and confuse myself. tomorrow i've got some surveying to do. and on thursday gonna go running. dental on friday in the morning and not too sure what to do later for the whole day. saturday got the work thing again. sunday is boring day. but dad's home so, probably some family thingy. i realise that some people have family days. and i don't. but i guess it's just like having a girlfriend. some are a bitch. some have a bitch. figure it out. it's very vague i know. but like i said, read it through. but it's just crap, not supposed to make much sense. it's just supposed to make you go...'hm, what the hell. maybe..yeah...true? funny...crap la you nav'...hm, crap is logic told in a humorous way. other than that, it's just old lame shit. and those are the kind of things that don't require much attention.

just when i though i'm falling to my death, i fall down on this cliff side. on my left is a cave. on my right, it's a step to another fall, maybe to my death, maybe not. i have no idea. this cave is calling out to me. it's appealing. it's offering me food. it has the sound of flowing water from inside. isit just being nice to me and when i do enter it, it will lead me to nowhere. or isit really a cave that will lead me to the other side of the mountain that has a new life waiting for me. this is what is going through my mind. girls. what can i say.

Culda