We're oft to blame, and this is too much proved, that with devotion's visage and pious action we do sugar on the devil himself.

To whom it may concern, apologies if it hurts, but the true of intention of it is to make aware the reasons as to why one should be displeased...

i have quit from tcc. some ask, finally? others ask, why so? why again? well, i joined back in tcc, i knew i could stay for another year or so. but unfortunately, UNFORESEEN CIRCUMSTANCES arose and that cause misunderstandings, or which could be easily avoided but was instead pursued. then even though i agree that some of the things were my fault, it does take two hands to clap. hm, try to understand where this is coming from.

let me elaborate. first of all, i am not trying to single out anyone. but judging from what i'm describing, you guys prob now what i'm talking about. are you gonna put anything in my records? that i'm a sore loser? i'm just voicing out, for what is right. alright, let me begin.

let me first ask, how painful isit to work in a place where work culture is so unbelivably terrible. some people may say that they find working there fun, some may say othewise. it depends how you get treated. i've been subjected to the many cold shoulders my entire working life and there's seriously a limit to how much one can take. how painful isit to work in a place where people contradict their own actions? it's painful...and tiring.

you may say it's nonsense, but i mean, (i'm trying to keep it short here) it's also painful when people try to 'promise' you something. but then again, have to hand it to them, how they have the ability to convince you that they might actually get you increment? how they actually have the ability to convince you that everything will be alright if you jsut be more subtle? if you be more 'matured'? you did a good job. you had me convinced. so convinced i actually decided to change for the better. but when i realise that it was just a talk, when i realise that it was just a piece of deception, i showed my worst. rebellion? nope...i prefer it to be known as reacting reasonably to oppression. and what did it lead to in the end? noone won. but i knew that even if i were to do my all for you had talked to me about, i knew that it would still never happen. favouritism? no, i'm not saying anything. i'll give you the benefit of the doubt that you know better than myself to know that i deserve what you talked about. i always knew somethings were too good to be true. you were. you and your whole bag of deceptions. it's amazing how you can still act pissed, with the fact that you probably know what's going on around. you jsut happen to show that you deserve to be respected. but isn't respect earned not given?

then there's also the one, who would jsut criminalise you for just asking anything...knowing that the answer can be given immediately. but sadly, the answer has to go tour round the eyeballs and brain cells and then has to be disguised slowly and the question, not the answer mind you, will be asked to someone who doesn't really need to know of it. this creates one unnecessary clusterfuck. and another thing, if someone were to be sincerely discussing about a problem, why is it that the problem needs to be disected and then thrown back to you in a disgusted way which in turns destroys the whole working flow process and then spoils the mood and causes the whole atmostphere to be awkward for no good reason. or maybe you just have problems? personal problems? you like to react to things in a defensive way? hm, "i only care for my customers. i don't care about my staff." ever heard of internal customers?

i know i may not be the best, i know i have my problems. sure i goof off? ever found out why? there should come a point when we're discussing about what we should do, we should also take some time off to discuss the why? we're talking about what someone should do because of his/her actions. have you ever asked why? though why may not solve the given problem, it helps to understand people and where they come from. once we understand this, we may actually start to prevent some problems from happening...it does work , just to let you know.

hm, i never wanted to leave. i wanted to be in tcc for another year. with what some poeple 'promised' me. but though that couldn't be settled for. i thought maybe i could go somewhere else? but i couldn't. how painful do you think isit to be asked to work in a place you don't wana work due to the fact that you know it is quite hard to work there due to the timings and scheduling? but even when you explain this, the things that they say imply that you shouldn't leave...but i mean, if it's causing alot of problems, why continue working there?

it's seriously a head-scratcher. i don't understand why sometimes. was i not promising? it's just that somethings really cause me to act and react otherwise. i've had it. it's tough. i am not a mind reader. nor am i a miracle worker. am i not entitled to a few mistakes? there is just so much to say...but how do you want me to say it all here. i just need to get part of it out right here. if i feel the need, i'll post more. but just to let you know, i was interested in working again. but now, my mood for it is spoilt. oh, and this is the main reason why i'm quitting. thanks alot. thanks for the memories...both good and bad...

Culda

P.S. more to come? it depends if i can actually get all my thoughts down to paper...i'm sorry, but though some is my fault...some is yours