You Didn't Come Here To Make The Choice, You've Already Made It. You're Here To Try To Understand Why You Made It.

time to understand what we're doing. we've all got to understand why we're making such choices. if there isn't a reason behind something, well, then maybe that thing isn't worth doing. but remember what is not worth doing, may not be the same as not doing it at all. it's hard to understand it at one go, but it slowly creeps up on us. in life, we don't always need to do the right thing. the right thing is so subjective. all we need to do before making subjective and objective oppositions and assumptions is to understand.

well, it was a boring week to start with. had my 10km run. i kinda felt proud. now all i need to do is to improve on it. make myself more powerful. don't think i actually need to drink so much during the run. that way i'll be faster. hm...running is good. but i think you kinda need to motivate yourself before you run. cause if you just run while having nothing at all in mind, it seems like you'll not do that well unless you've got that anticipation or adrenalin rush. if you've got that rush, you feel like you can run better and longer and faster. just my thoughts.

hm, thinking, should i join the sp track and field team next year...just for fun you know...i'm still gonna be active in rovers...but i mean...yeah..track and field...i don't mind just trying out for it...hm, who knows what can happen...

sp dj has something going on next year first sem!!! who wants to go?? okay, it's not cause i'm trying to be a dick and try to advertise for the SP DJ, it's just that i'm too tired to actually going to all those clubs...might as well go for some clubbing thing that goes on throughout school. but hey, there won't be any booze...not that they know of...what am i talking about...i dunno

Hm...rovers!!! well, it seems reasonable. training dept in the Rover Big Foot (RBF) committee...currently gotta think of training ideas for the coming camp for the RBF participants. then annual camp is coming along fine. i just need the finance thing. to me, once i get the finance thing done, all the worries are gone for the planning part. cause then we all need to worry about the executing part, whihc for this camp, kinda is like the most important part...cause planning basically is just how you want to make it fun. but cause we are making it in a fun, unique, kinda sick way, the planning is kinda tiring as well....but hey, jsut need the finance thing...the finance thing...argh...i'm cool...then there's for the aaron's event (apparently that's the name of the event) for which i'm the secretary. but i haven't been going for it. hm, secretary, i don't think anyone knows i hate being secretary, but looking at me, i don't look like a secretary. i look like the guy who's banging the secretary...just a joke. just a joke. com'on liven up...

hm, i haven't been at the movies in a long time. i'm like quarantined in my home, watching movies on my macbook, like batman, hostel 1 & 2, v for vendetta (superb movie by the way), and others like that. got comedies like dave chapelle and russell peters and chris rock...but i need to get out there you know. and talking about quarantine, i was like planning to watch quarantine a long time ago but never found the time. hm, am planning to watch twilight, but you know planning to watch it with someone. it's been months, i need to be in that scene again. it kinda gets boring. being single rocks...but hey, single people are people who love to mingle (and not forgetting fondle... just kidding just kidding, i'm not that kinda guy...not always)...hm, i jsut gotta take it slow with this one...hm, it's like trying to get close to a dove...you can't make it any sudden moves, cause you'll just scare it away...anyway, yeah, prob gonna just take it slow with her. but she's kinda scary...not scary scary...but as in friendly scary and all that...i dunno...maybe i'm just freaking paranoid. or maybe i'm jsut a flirt??? as to what she says...i dunno what i'm talking about right now...

hm, maybe i should look though my life...see what are the choices i'm making...am i doing too much. i know i can handle much, but my life can't...as to what my manager said, 'maybe you should givee up this job, maybe you're having too much right now'...is she right? i am starting to think about it, and the more i think about it, it seems quite true. i mean...should i give up on some stuff? should i give up on somethings that's eating me up slowly? or should i give up on something that's eating me up slowly? for those reading and seeing whether i'm being dumb or whatever cause i wrote the same damn sentence twice...i beg to differ...read the sentences again...there is a difference...and for those who understand it, please i'm just thinking about it...i'm ready to make the choice...just whether i'm able to understand whether it's the right choice or just a good choice.

Culda

P.S. check out youtube.com for my stupid videos...it's stupid and retarded but hey, it's out of boredom and this is what boredom does. it will start killing the child in you, and if you let it, your life will die...so watch it now motherfreaker...