I'm Back Finally...To The One Of The Few Places Where It's Okay To Talk To Oneself Without Being Weirdly Glanced At.

well, what's been up lately..? why haven't i been blogging much...

well my dear friends...it happens sometimes where some people all of a sudden don't have the urge to blog. i actually did have the sudden urge to blog again, but when i started writing, i would stop halfway...then i would start thinking...is it really worth blogging...hm...i have a very short attention span...to which i will use as a reason/excuse as to why sometimes i don't really pay much attention and some stuff like that...

SCHOOL SHIT
alright, i've been up with sp, studying (well not much), rovers and work. well, i'm intending to change course so i kinda don't give a shit about what's happening. the director who happens to look like a cross between mao zedong and mickey mouse blabbed about me just taking it all in. what the heck you think i'm doing, you doon (director + goon = doon!)...then i'm only caring about group stuff and those SP modules...so i don't really need to go thru it all over again when i start my year 1 as a new student in sp...well, technically not new...but who' counting. then i'm also kinda gonna get rid with gems...finish it up as soon as possible. let me tell you about my gems. there's this girl in my gem (general elective module) class that's like so retarded, and i'm judging that from what experience...she's not enthusiasitc...she's freakily retarded...and i'm bored by her lame reactions and attention-seeking...hm, i'm normally like the guy who likes to inject a little humor, cause it doesn't hurt....but dear god, i'm like lying on the table with my hands on my head and counting down the minutes down to the end of the class. then there's this trio sitting behind always trying to make the room colder by their sense of humor. that's why i everytime i'm out of class, i'm rubbing my nose due to no my nose being numb from the coldness and low blood circulation...it's sometimes abit a good temperaature for hibernation.

ROVERS
then rovers is also going on. chairman for the annual camp. it's going on fine. it would be eve more better if there's a freaking roof over our heads for the camp...why do i say that? cause there's no freaking chalet/resort available during that period of time where we're having our camp. but i'm still optimistic. and talking about optimistic, RIC (rover instructorship course) is happening. it sounds really fun the way it is put. actually i really am seriously quite eager to actually get on to it. there's one problem though...and i won't say it...

hm, well, what can i say. sometimes in life, there are people we like and people we hate. hm...then i dunno why...but i just feel abit tired...or maybe it's because i sometimes have the urge to just hate someone or make some people hate me. i dunno why...but it just so happens this way...and the thing is...i sometimes tend to have a short temper...so i have a feeling that i might just let off certain feelings on to another person...it happens to everyone...we can't help it...i just hope that it will not affect much...and i mean, it'll be quite weird for me to do it...considering that i'm new and stuff...and i kinda am not at thatm level to actually be legal to do so...yeah...but i'm a homosapien...so i can't help it..

WORK
okay, work. hm, how would you feel when someone actually gives you false hope and 'promises'? what's the use of actually going through everything when you know that you're gonna be still treated as a kid? i mean, whether you do a good job or a bad job, you're still treated the same? it's kinda hurting to be actually trying to do good job when you finally realise it was just for nothing? sometimes it's kinda hard entering with a smiley face and over-enthusiasitc mood when deep inside the first thing that you feel like doing is throwing the glass bowl containing the packets of mint or throwing the schedule clipboard in someone's face. well, if people are not comfortable working with other people, then there's problem. and if there's problem, there'll be unhappy supervisors. and when there's unhappy supervisors, there's unhappy staff. and when there's unhappy staff, there'll be unhappy customers. see the chain reaction? what are we all heading for? truthfully, there are wonderful people there. but life ain't so easy on us. we have to learn how to fuck other not-so-wonderful people.

Culda