I Wanna Let You Know About It All, But I Fear The Unknown Of Some Unknown Fear And I Also Do Not Want It To Just Fall Apart Before It Got Pieced Up.

i dunno whether what i said makes sense. i'm not getting as creative as i used to be. anyway, yeah. had a very uneventful weekend. did half of econs homework while i was half-asleep and completed the rest of it in the afternoon. then continued on to touch up my accounting tutorial. it was all good. then kinda just searched for more songs as well and just heard another great version of katy perry, but that's a different story.

i feel that my blog entries are like getting shorter and shorter each day. i dunno, i jsut find it tough to actually keep to a certain word limit so i just write what i feel like. like i could start writing about a monkey kissing an aligator thinking that it was a burnt over-sized banana and lived to tell the tale but i wouldn't cause it isn't much of a story but rather more of a interesting yet redundant snippet to just fill into some paragraph or something. or maybe i could start writing again about something deep and profound like how love is.

what is love? love is nothing but a word. a simple but complexed word. but then again, as i always say, complexities of life are meant to be simplified in one way or another to make our lives less confused. but then again, no matter what, we're always confused.

so why is love so complex if it's simply a word? love is full of contradictions and ironies and duality and whatever have you in this world. love can bring two people together, and can make two others fall apart. love can be the word used to make someone happy, or to make someone truthfully happy. love joins hearts before breaking them. love is a problem and also a solution, a cause and also an effect. love no matter where you look at it, is a crime as you steal hearts for yourself, while allowing yours to be stolen as well. love can be between two people or you and the world. love is nothing and everything. love is all around us but it can't be felt.

love involves all the different values and all like simple committement, dedication, understanding, care, concern, friendship and thoughts for each party from the heart. attraction. true smiles and tears from the heart. and all that things. i can't carry on.

sometimes you wear a mask for so long you forget who are you beneath it.

can't wait for dba 07 chalet. wonder what is there in store. the only bad thing. after getting my financial status up and healthy again, gotta part with 20 bucks of it. back to me living in a financial deificit. my wallet never felt so light. and it's been a long time since i had my favourite drink - RED BULL!!! red bull gives you wings...and so does a bus hitting you in the face but i think red bull is better. cause you can get back down. whatever. anyway, i wanna go chalet. hope that the PTN thing can apply and we get like 7 bucks reimbursement. reimbursement, my favourite word. after free of charge.

gotta go off to lala land and dream of soft little pink sheep and turn them into tender steaks of mutton for a hearty dinner. i'm like freaking hungry now. gawd-damn son of a bitch, i'm hungry.

my heart skips a beat everytime i look at you.

hm, i dunno what happened to me yesterday. why i said those things...i really dunno why. i read it again. and to me, it sounds really really stupid. but i just don't really want to say everything right now. like i said, it's still too early. but everytime an argument comes up when it involves serious stuff (to me), i just wanna yell it out. whatever. haiz, i dunno why that thing happened. i'm not one to say forget what happened. that's up to you.

Culda

P.S. i wonder whether I should NEED to talk to YOU.